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A belated post  
12:50am 11/10/2011
Okay so I didn't post yesterday, and I barely posted today so I am going to make 2 posts tonight. The first will be about my weekend/ day and the second will be my goals continued.

For so long I've been hiding from the house and only getting my social interaction on second life so this weekend was a lot of fun! So Satuarday I got drug to a baby shower that I really didn't that to go to. I was kind of forced to go, and I really hate going to events like that where I don't know the person. I feel like someone trying to mooch free food! but I went and it was somewhat fun. Lindsey was being bad when the woman was opening her gifts. She took her shoes off, which was bad enough but then the old lady on the other side of me decided that she was going to take off her shoe and put her leg across mine and put my foot on my knee to show Lindsey that she had red painted toe nails too. I couldn't believe it, that was odd! So after the baby shower we went to the Italian Festival, I went with Karen and Lois and Lindsey. It was fun.
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Setting Goals  
07:08pm 08/10/2011
I have been stuck in such a rut for the past few months that I think it's time I start getting serious about setting goals for myself and sticking to them. I know that I deserve to be happy and I have not really been that happy lately.

*I want to lose weight- and I have a lot of weight to lose. After having my daughter I gained about 100 lbs when I had goals of losing 20 to start with! When I am able to afford it, I would like to be able to get a gym membership. When I get that I would like to go work out about 6 days a week, I was thinking work myself up to 2 full hours of cardio and once I've got that down, I would to add another 30 minutes of weights and toning. I will most likely limit myself to 1000 calories a day. There are a lot of awesome diet recipes out there so I think I'll try some. This might be a little difficult, the people in my house don't eat vegetable just a meat entree and sometimes one or two starches... the rare few times I have seen them make veggies was broccoli drowning in cheese sauce. I even thought of doing the biggest loser meal plan, though it's expensive. It's about $168 a week for 3 meals and one snack each day. Normally I would say "ehhh, never mind, I'll just make my own meal plans" but there are two reasons why I am considering the Biggest Loser meal plan. One, is what I already said before... the people don't eat healthy and if I did go out and buy healthier food, there is always the chance someone else will eat it before I get the chance which wouldn't bother me if there were other healthy options in this house, but there isn't. Second, once I get started losing weight, I feel so fantasticly great that I don't even want to go anywhere near anything that's unhealthy or might slow down my progress. I think the biggest loser mean plan would be great for the first month until I see results because if I am paying $168 for something per week, I sure as heck wouldn't do anything to defeat the purpose of that. All of that being said I am making the goal to lose 120 lbs by November 1st, 2012. If you think about it, that's only 10 lbs per month, that seems doable. So I am also making small mile stones and I will weigh in every week and share!

My smaller goals are here
-first 10 lbs lost
-first 20 lbs lost
-Fifty lbs lost
-Half way point
-75 lbs lost
-20lbs to go
-10 lbs to go
-goal weight

I can't wait to share when I reach them!
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Hello again World!  
02:29pm 07/10/2011
So I have decided that journaling is really good for me. It helps me ponder my thoughts and express them. I have decided that I would like to journal every day for a complete half hour. It doesn't always have to be well thought out and intense stuff but I really think it would be good. I am sure that all of the friends I had on here before are no longer active and who knows, maybe I will make new ones! time will only tell. But, on that note... I suppose I should say a little about myself...

My name is Rachel and I am 23, I live in Nevada right now, though I don't really like it much, I guess I can explain the situation more later. I have a daughter that's turning three in a week, her name is Lindsey Jade and she is so much fun and full of energy she's the light of my life. I am in a going on five year relationship with someone that I love (most of the time) and his name is Mitch. We don't always get along and sometimes he can just be flat out disrespectful and impossible to live with, but when we have good times they are the best. After all of this time he really does make me happy and helped me grow. He's a great dad and I appreciate that he is working two jobs so that I can stay at home (which is another thing I will get into more later).

If you haven't already figured it out, I am a person with a huge heart and I love unconditionally. this isn't really a good thing because it seems like everyone I have ever loved except Mitch and Lindsey, even my own parents, family, and best friends have all loved me conditionally. I still love them with all of my heart but I decided my life is much more happier and up beat when they are at a distance. It can sometimes hurt, but it's for the best I think.

I also play in a virtual world called Second Life. If you have never heard of it you should really check it out, it's amazing. In second life I have a child, teen and adult avatar that I play, but 90% of the time I play my child avatar. I have a great family there that are like real family to me.

I work at home right now, or try to. I really want to be able to afford all of the things I want while being at home. I've worked outside of the home and been absolutely miserable, I am best in my own element.

Well, that's me in a nutshell! I'll be back for more tomorrow!
mood: nostalgicnostalgic
music: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVXmMMSo47s
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Starting Over  
11:15pm 06/10/2011
Wow. I have had this journal for over 7 years. I miss it and even if nobody ever reads it, it's a fantastic way to express myself and my feelings. It's been a tough decision but I think I am going to delete all of my old posts from high school, mostly because in retrospect I think I sounded like an idiot. When you are a teenager, every friendship and every crush just seems so epic, maybe even a bit dramatic. I will leave them alone for now and just delete the ones that seem especially idiotic until I come up with an idea of what I want to do with the high school posts... I'll be posting again soon!

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my baby.  
10:59am 12/03/2008
I stopped using this but i'm going to start again to give baby updates.

mood: awakeawake
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seeings how...  
10:23pm 23/07/2006
i havent written in this in forever i forgot everthing about lj so if anyone wants to refresh my memory feel free to do so.
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in forever  
06:14pm 23/07/2006
^ is how long it's been since i've been on this thing!
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(no subject)  
10:48am 15/06/2005
i am going to try to write in this more
mood: bouncybouncy
music: none
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08:33pm 28/03/2005
hey guys! shoot me, i neglect my journal... um i luv you guys aand i am sorry. i am in washington DC now on spring break, i am still single guys ;)
mood: crazycrazy
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(no subject)  
07:27pm 19/02/2005
I need:
A new job
A prom Date
A LIFE!!!!!!!!
mood: amusedamused
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